Paper Heart

6th April 2018 Jumaat. Seminar dah settle. Case presentation pun dah. Tapi kaki melangkah keluar dengan penuh debaran. Pelik juga kenapa palpitation tiba-tiba ni. Turns out harini banyak benda di luar kawalan. Tension headache menyerang sebelah petang sampai ke malam. Kepala berat gagah keluar sebab teringin red velvet. Tapi hampa pulak red velvet pun tak sedap seperti biasa. Kek rasa lama. Spagetti pun kurang garam. Ni siapa yang bad day, aku ke chef ni? Sampai semua takda rasa. Lepas dinner, meeting map. Kenapa kena ada mcc ahad ni, penat merungut dalam hati. Partner yg incharge dengan aku dah blah tak bagitau sampai laa aku tanya. Bengang dia aku je rasa. Buat module sorang-sorang lepas tu nak kena jaga station sorang-sorang. Okey dah habis meeting. Nak kena settle jemur baju semua. Nak settle kan log book by malam ni. Sebab esok lusa dah start busy cme dengan mcc. Ya Allah bantu aku. Permudahkan semuanya. Ye aku tau. Aku menulis bila aku dah taktau nak luah di man...

26th January 2018 I want to write this story as a self reminder. So today, i reached my limit. I actually brokedown and crying while solat (no marks for khusyuk obviously). My life has been quite stressful these past few days. Our semester exam is approaching and this neuro posting is killing me. For selanjar 7 we have 4 killer specialist posting which are ent ophthal commed and neuro. For 3 weeks of neuro, we got alot of things to accomplish, 2 case write-up of neuro case is like 10 cases btw because it will be long and complicated cases. So we just started clerking this week and bayangkan all 20 people have to write different case. Neuro case is not like batuk demam sehari 10 admissions and everyone was like fighting over the cases, siapa cepat dia dapat case best and mudah. Tak tambah lagi patient's side yg language barrier and not cooperative yada yada. And for next week I have to present tutorials twice. Topics pun boleh tahan susah dia. And what's more I have topic...